God has relieved so much of himself to me this year.
When people started asking me how I liked Baruch, I realized that I only liked it because I met one friend. My best friend, truly opened herself up to me. She introduced me to her friends and in her life. Life was no longer: school, work, home. And because I met her by choosing sitting next to her in a 300 people lecture, I have to say I was blessed to meet her. I realize now, that God has put her in my life to help me through this year. And now that I’m writing this, Miyoung too. How in a school of so many people, could God placed with me such people who do not judge me. Who are so similar and compatible with me. They were the only reason I survived and was happy.
And how throughout all of this, did He provide me still with an accountability sister? Where did all my home church sisters go? How was it that my NYSC sister, was so invested in me. God has perfect timing. I realized that no one from the church, except for the older sister at Temple, had talked to me about my faith. I didn’t really keep up with any one. How God provided me with Miyoung and her Pastor, to show me what a church of love could be. That weekly bible studies aren’t always diving so deep into the word - breaking things down, phrase by phrase - but instead, it could be words, used in university. Words that a professor, holding a bible study in his office, said in his class.
Faith random list:
- I realized God was real my first year of TECBC. Scripture says “blessed are those who have not seen, and yet have believed” I saw something that night. Maybe I can’t have that blind faith. But, I recognize the Spirit so strongly - and that’s thats where my faith comes from. Even through times of drought, it was impossible for me to ignore. Only through God, could people unite together and cry out. Praise with everything in their hearts. How can you not be happy when praising? Or when you see youth so passionate?
- 2nd semester sophomore year, when I realized I was so empty because I wanted community. That this emptiness that I used to feel in HS, was back without me even knowing.
- When Katie told me her problem. And I wanted to say that it’s “all in God’s time”. But I felt like a hypocrite. But that’s when I realized, I do believe in something. It’s not just because I grew up in church. I firmly know, God has a plan. And it’s all in his time.